-I wish that i am in your first place-

2009-04-30T11:30:00.000+08:00

Help me..

2008-10-03T09:47:00.004+08:00

Why can't human work well with one another..

if we not willing to teach..

people will not willing to learn..

can't we stay happy as class..

y must compare this class and the previous class...

everyone behave differently..

don't understand..

Don't understand..

2008-09-23T09:24:00.002+08:00

Why will my school hired such a facil..

Don't understand what he talk..

Don't even remember people sia..

Call me don't know what name..

Oh my god..

Someone come and save me..

Darling was sick yesterday..

Hope he get well soon..

Haiz..

Just wish that everything will be just fine..

2008-09-17T12:52:00.003+08:00

Is my nightmare coming soon..

Darling going back to CWP to work..

Will I be the same like last time..

No more attention form him..

Got all his friend..

N I no longer important..

I actually don't like him to work there..

Don't trust him again..

The pain come back again..

Jealousy..quarrel..all come back to me

I don't noe..I am just scared..

Anyone can teach me wat to do..

I like E36M..but

2008-09-14T23:29:00.001+08:00

I like E36M..but

mostly all my facil..

really suck in my heart..

after all i miss all my old facil

now telling u...

i really don't like to go to sch..

Miss darling so much..

take care everyone

I always want to make this relationship..

2008-09-14T01:44:00.004+08:00

My 100th posts..

I always want to make this relationship..

Teach me how..

How to make this relationship more exciting..

I have use up all my ideas..

MY LIFE WILL BE COLOURLESS WITHOUT U..

My heart is empty..

2008-09-11T09:45:00.002+08:00

Today my heart is so empty..

3 days never see darling le..

kind of miss him..

today must go jogging le..

don't want to get more and more fatter..

want to prove to him that I can wear short pant one..

today cognitive kind simple..

but boring..

beauty again..

so sleepy..

Jobie's daughter birthday coming..

didn't really know what to buy..

any suggestion?

Take care guy..

My dearest E35C..

2008-09-09T14:08:00.003+08:00

Today the class is quite boring..

everyone is doing their own thing..

miss E35C..

remember how crazy we play..

drawing Bhai's leg..

take photo inside the lift..

MSN combo chat during class..

celebrating Benny leaving with pizza..

pressing "8"floor..

eat together..

play together..

everyday using web cam take photo..

own self declare last day of sch..

order pizza..

keep using camera taking photo..

miss ya guys..

Boring day..

2008-09-08T11:31:00.005+08:00

Today having science class..
is not longer my fav facil..
is a lady..
she look so so..
with kids..
everything seem so boring..
no one want to play with me..
boring boring..

no handsome facil..
everyone is doing their own thing..
it kind of boring..

Dot has a blog..haha
how the rest of ur class..
how the classmate..
how u all doing?
doing great..
i am so tired..
take care guys..

The coolest show..

2008-09-04T11:53:00.002+08:00

Yesterday watch 1 damm nice show in MTV..

it is call "the X-factor"

what this show about?

M - male

F-Female

let me say the story..

this show bring 2 couple

M1 and F1

M2 and F2

F1 and F2 are best friend..

the show will bring..

F1 and M2 to a nice hotel

for vacation..

M1 and F2 will stay at one apartment..

to spy their own bf and gf..

the show create something to make M1 and F2 worried..

for example..

when it reach climax

or let them see when their own bf and gf do..

but i watch so many esp..

there is like no faithful bf or gf..

they usually like one another when they go on the vacation..

maybe because they are "ang mo"

but i believe Singaporean will do that..

who is there to be faithful..

but I know i will..

so guys out there..

pls be faithful to ur partner..

treasure and love them

don't two timer..

it will hurt them..

And guys..

If I am dead..

i give u all this permission..

see wat my bf (whoever it is) react when i am in the coffin..

if u see that he feel nothing..

i give u permission to hit him..

just kidding..

it hard to find guy that show this emotion..

today lesson..

cannot link to my head..

very hard

cognitive very hard..

going back to class..

take care..

P.s. Miss darling

New sem..

2008-09-04T00:28:00.002+08:00

New sem..

New class..

new friends..

Stranger..

Quite slient in the morning..

But slowly everyone start to talk..

Miss E35C..

Now in E36M..

Take care everyone..

P.s. I miss Darling..

an answer..

2008-08-31T21:45:00.002+08:00

Today i went to ask God a answer..It reply me...

Everything has high and low..

Now I have to calm down

Go to a place and relax..

Everything has a answer..

God will tell me when the time come..

That is wat i can remember..

It tell me that it going to be the end of story..

2008-08-30T21:11:00.003+08:00

I don't noe what to do..i thought that the trip can help..but I realise that the ans is no..things does not remain the same or become good..but it turn out that it became more worst..friendster..attitude..hp..quarrel..trip..picture..alot of things are really hidden..even though I maybe thinking alot..they already tell me an ans..it just a matter to follow or not..I am someone that cannot be share anything with..can anyone tell me wat to do..but no matter wat the ans..I want to do finish something before ending this thing or continue with this relationship..tell me wat to do? I am so confuse..why do i see rainbow during there?

Hey guy..over GPA result out..

2008-08-26T17:45:00.002+08:00

teach u all how to open..NOT FROM LEO..

1. log in to http://myrp.sg/
2. go to admin
3. key in your username and password
4. place your house at Academic Matters (do not click)
5. You will see Academic Information..Click on it
6. You will see each module grade and overall GPA..

Good luck..My overall GPA is 2.8

there will alway be a rainbow after a heavy rain..

2008-08-19T11:53:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was one of the happiest day..all my unhappiness i told to him..my doubt and all..clear one by one..stupid yvonne..sometime can u think lesser..u r like creating problem and don't alway add dumb..he will know one..just to tell..i love ya..the rain yesterday really help me alot..thank ya..P.s. I love ya, darling=)

who am I? I am nothing just an empty shell..

2008-08-14T23:15:00.006+08:00

I am stupid..

I am ugly..

I am fat..

I am boring..

I am deaf..

I am useless..

I know nothing..

I only know how to make you angry..

but why..

why u still love me?

Why want to continue tis relationship?

Why don't u just leave me?

I really love you alot..

re post..

2008-08-12T21:41:00.002+08:00

I did not manage to re post..every time log into it..I don't noe wat to write..nowadays just confuse plus confuse plus sad plus sad..just want to cry and cry..got tired of everything..today i watch a show..find this statement like talking me me.."if you love him..you have to tolerate him..never expect him to change..that will only hurt u..if u cannot tolerate..u have to think of a solution..which is to break up with him"..I still love him..but I don't noe how much he love me..is the feeling still there..got a feeling that the feeling is fading..he don't really love me like last time..the care seem not there..don't really want to reply sms..call also did not talk more that 5 mins..alot of things is more importance than me..scolding become more and more..i don't want t say anymore..is just make me more and more sad..love ya..

national day

2008-08-10T12:16:00.002+08:00

everyone is happily celebratinng national day but not me..everytime never get to see firework..esp with u..new year never..national day never..kind of tired..re post later..

The craziest thing I have done for love is..

2008-08-08T18:34:00.006+08:00

The craziest thing I have done for love is to sacrifice all my thing and just wish to see him smile.
Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008 (ORIGINATOR BLOG:http://dancingbells.blogspot.com/)

looking forward..

2008-08-05T23:53:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went out eat with darling..lost my hp..aw...pls tell me ur no if u see this..but it was like so sweet..he is cute and ask me sing song to him..today went to collect my sim card..after that met darling then we go airport actually want to study but end up eating..walking around there..after that we went home..darling is so cute..when he talk like girl like that..hehe..tired..looking forward to the oversea trip..

heart break..

2008-08-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

My heart broke when u say that i don’t nod wat u want..darling..wat u know about it..i stand at the y..i stand at the shop for 10 min..thinking to buy or not..buy..i will get the scolding..never buy..u will say i don’t even care about u..i really don’t noe wat to do..but y i choose to buy..i rather u scold me than say i don’t care u..but i can see that the surprise face was just not there..last time when i buy the black shirt..it was not like this..you look very happy and surprise..the day i give u..u say u like..but i nod ur face tell everything..don’t really like..that all i noe..today u ask me change to long sleeve and scold me for spending money..u say i don’t understand wat u want..don’t anyhow buy thing..i am ur gf..i don’t understand u..now i nod..i don’t understand u..i am sorry..it mean to be a surprise for ya..using something to courage u study..telling u wat i going to buy..where is the surprise..my heart is thorn into pieces..

Everything is changing..

2008-07-31T00:11:00.002+08:00

Something watever u say to me..it might be the truth..but i don't noe y my heart does not want to accept the ans..u have change..the love for me seem to be not there..it fading..i can feel it..i was so sad..i cried at home..i start to be a crazy person in class..to make myself forget everything..let my time pass faster..but after sch..i still alone..my mind tend to run wild..start to think negative..y i will have all these want to know..when i cried today..my mind is thinking my name has change to "share"..he have not been wearing the couple ring for around 1 month..he don't care about me at all..sem 1 going to be over..the promise have not came true..my oversea trip might not be a success one..i feel so embarrass a girl ask a guy to go oversea with him..worst till..i don't noe y i just have this feeling that there is some one coming into this relationship..which is third party..or maybe i am the third party..he was scared that people will say he neglect me..but who the hell will say that this relationship is an enclose one..who will know we are together..now i understand y did my grandma change into my dream..she ask me not to be sad..i noe that all i can do is to be strong..try my very best to strengthen tis relationship..

leaving this place..

2008-07-29T23:54:00.002+08:00

Actually i wanted to leave Singapore badly with darling..darling u may not know the reason..then reason is simple..i wish to go somewhere that no one know..we don't need to find anything from anyone..yesterday dream of grandma..she consoles me not to be sad and she will alway protect me and be my gurdian angel..darling seem trouble..unwilling to tell me..hope evrything is find for him..dear..love ya..miss ya

2008-07-29T09:52:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th month anniversary Darling..yesterday was our 18th..time fly really fast..yesterday he went to meet me at hoguang point..went to eat KFC..a short one then he left..send him to the car park because he went to johor to pump petrol..that y he kind of tired..for me..i also very tired..alot of things have happen to me..did not really have enough of sleep..will update soon..everyone take care..love ya darling (“,)

Dear girl..RIP..

2008-07-24T21:23:00.006+08:00

RIP

Loo Yee Wen Jerlyn
(27.02.1989-22.07.2008)

this year 19..

Girl..today we sent u for your last jounery..

hope that u are able to rest in peace..

we are sad to see u like this..

alot of things i nod u haven done..

we even plan to have class outing this sat..

but i believe that the truth will be out one day..

Good bye my dear friend..Yee Wen

2008-07-24T00:06:00.003+08:00

You will always be remeber by us..today went to your wake..we was sad to see u..i remeber i last saw you when u was with ur friends at amk hub..till now..it seem to be like a dream..all of us hope that this is not happening..Good bye..my dear friend...RIP..

Rest in peace, Yee Wen

2008-07-22T23:45:00.006+08:00

It..was..just like a dream..pls slap me tell me it the truth..today class 5/1 of 2006..has lost a good friend..her name was Yee Wen..she is also counted a joker in the class..she have left this world..hope that u will rest in peace..u will always remember by me and by us..we was like so sad to heard the news..in the morning..sean was so happy telling me he pass his driving test..after that he call me and broke this news..that she has just pass away..got into a car accident..it was like too sudden..darling was beside me..i almost cried again..my mind just go empty when going back to class..this few years..see friends and family passing away..from tis i learnt to treasure people around me..tml going to the funeral not going to school..think tml alot of people will be crying..even for me..darling..i am sorry..too surprise that u came down to look for me today..but did help u..i will help u..if i can tml..I am sorry, darling..

confusion..

2008-07-21T16:21:00.003+08:00

"Day no 11 darling having heal his heart"..everything seem to been change after the quarrel..darling does not seem to like to go out with me or talk to me..i noe that we will not watch movie..nowaday the movie is all like "non-human" movie..understand?? so miss him..never really go out..don't even noe fri go out issit counted as going out..went to eat le..find bluetooth..then chat at house downstair..haiz..everything just change..miss watching movie..miss going out..miss him so much..haiz..

2008-07-18T21:33:00.004+08:00

Today went to meet darling..he hurt himself..quite badly hope that he is fine..really hope god..next time pls put all his pain at me in instead of him..today went out with him..he seem to change..he look like sad and depress over his life..n use his happiness to cover it..i wish that i can help..but don't noe what can i do..i feel useless..nothing i can do for him..i was thinking if really one day he could found someone that make his life happy..treat him better than me..understand him more than me..most important thing..he also like her..i wish he will leave me n be with the someone instead..it is not because i don't love him anymore..is i want him to be happy..i will feel sad to leave him..n i don't wish to leave him..but i just want him to be happy..i will do anything for him as long as he is happy..in my heart i always love him..he is someone..who taught me alot of things..someone that make my life happy..enjoy my life with him..someone i spent my 1 and a half years with and someone who i love the most..the guy i really like the most..but i always make him angry..i really want him to be happy..but i don't nod if i am that girl that can make him happy and that girl he really want to be with forever..but i really hope/wish that i am the one..Darling..I love u always..u r always in my heart..always i wanted to be with forever..

take care darling..

2008-07-18T00:15:00.007+08:00

Actually i nod that darling are still angry with me..all i can do is to wait..darling..take care..i nod it really hurt u when the bike fall..u sping your back and your hand again..got cut on leg and hand..take care..really worry for u..take care..hope everything will be fine for me..dear god..let all his pain and problem come to me..i don't want to see him get hurt again..pls..punish me instead of him..put all the pain on me..i rather be the one to spring my back..my hand and leg..be the one to injury and get hurt..

Finally

2008-07-16T22:53:00.010+08:00

I finally wait for this day..i get to see darling..but i still miss you..you seem to look more better looking than last time..really..is like 1 week plus never see you..today enjoy myself with you darling but then..the time we get to see each other was short..i was thinking "how to make our relationship better?"..very scared that there will other girls outside snatching you away from me which I don't noe as u start to look more handsome lor..some more u are a sociable person..seem to have alot of girl-friends..but I believe you and myself..nothing going to break me down..going to be 18th months le..time passes so fast..alot of things are not done with you..want to go oversea with you darling..but i very scared that you will be boring with me if we go together..sem 1 also going to finish le..the promise of the riding home haven come true..but I will wait..know that you have been busy nowaday with his final year project..still got 3 weeks..wish that all your unhappiness come to me..your stress also come to me..Darling..I really love you..pls don't ever leave me again..

All the nightmare keep happening-work, friends, darling, school, family..wish the nightmare be gone and darling u can be with me forever..

A message to Darling
I know that you have been thinking that you have been neglecting me, last time I was even upset when my name in your phone is still "share" and you have not change, which always make me think of stupid things and ended up quarrel. But truly speaking, all these is the past already and I really don't mind it at all. I still remember you said that you can wear the ring everyday but that does not mean that you love me. I don't want to quarrel with you anymore. I feel so miserable after I quarrel with you over small things. I am really not angry and I don't mind that we only get to see each other once a week. If you are busy it ok to meet only once a week, but I hope that you could do the same thing as I do. I hoping that whenever you are, whatever you do and where ever you are, at least I am in your heart. A place in your heart. Like me, in school, in class, with friend, at home or shopping, even though you are not with me, you are the only one person that I always think, the only one in my heart. If I am given another chance to choose, I will still want to choose you to be my bf, still want to be your gf. Wish that I can be the one to continue the journey of our life together, stay with you forever. I Love You.

Day 6

2008-07-16T00:02:00.003+08:00

Day 6 without seeing darling..I never nod that time is very hard to pass when u r alone..1 min slowly 1 min..but whenever i with u..the time pass so fast..everyday cannot sleep..feel so miserable then must act crazy in front of the class..just help myself not to think..people must be thinkiing..y still go on when the relationship is like tis..i don't noe..just that i nod there is a feeling..when can we go out..1 week of cooling..1 more day then we will get to see each other..or still have to wait..will he love for me not the same like last time..i really don't want tis relationship to fade away or don't wish to see it end..

1 more day to go..i very scared to face him..

alone..

2008-07-15T13:59:00.004+08:00

Day no 5 without darling..today is a boring day..computering agin..morning just have UT..UT suck..finally saw darling while pass him the ear piece..but it was just less than 1 min..then went off..miss him so badly..don't noe when then can go out with u..don't noe we will still be together..my face still hurt..everyone ask me to cabot..watch the stranger..but i did not..scared u scold me..n i hope that i can meet u..but can i? Class left 9 people..so boring..Miss ya so so much..

Thank darling..

2008-07-14T21:07:00.006+08:00

Thank darling..i noe u treat me good..i nod u wanted to come my house bash my bro..but i don't want because of me..u two got hurt..esp u darling..i don't want you to have any harm..ya..today kanna bash by my bro 3 times on my face..it hurt..becuase he scolded my mom n i scolded him back then kanna bash..btw darling..wat ever u say..already touch me..thank..i promise if tis thing happen..i call ya..

it a miserable day..

2008-07-14T13:25:00.004+08:00

Without seeing darling for 4 days..I have to thank kyser..zac..and 2 nad..think you guys got a shock when i suddenly busted out..it kind of sad..but i nod u are under alot of stress..i wish i could help u..really..but i guess i put more pressure to u..hope everything is fine for u..1 week of cooling down..if i could turn back time..i rather that day run away from class..should not say that..these 4 days is a miserable day for me..alone..got scolded from people..but i don't feel any pain..because without u..i feel more pain..u take care..love ya always..

issit the end of our story..

2008-07-11T20:56:00.005+08:00

I don't want it to be like this..I still want to want to be with u..i don't noe wat i really say wrong today..i was happily finding u for lunch..all my friend knew that..but we never get to see each other more than 10 min..I don't noe wat say that make u so angry..i noe say "i will not slim down on my leg if u don't want study math.." this statement can make u so angry until u need to kick the rubbush bin..i was really sacred..u just leave me like this..just walk away..is this the end of our story..if it my wrong..i will change..i will hear..but the problem is..i don't even noe wat i do wrong..i say sorry about yesterday thing..u already forgive me..wat more u want..i totally lost..worst till is wat..i sch quarrel..my class lesson haven end..have to do presentation..worst today is on conflict..between one and another..i was sad..don't noe how to present..YAYA..I HAVE A QUARREL WITH MY BF..CAN..HAPPY..STUPID TOPIC..our 18th months coming..i wish to be with him..

It is a matter i handle it

2008-07-11T00:24:00.002+08:00

I don't noe why suddenly think that way..maybe today hong kong drama affect me..i afraid of losing everything esp u..failure gf..cannot help him in math..got feeling that everytime we go out..he seem to look very boring whenever with me..we always does not know where to go..i am suck in my sch work..suck with work..suck with friends..everything..i scare of this and that..so down..always myself crazy to make myself cheer up..cover my unhappiness..sometime i am a selfish person..never really care how darling feel..I am really sorry darling if u can read this..

just like a sotong..

2008-07-10T10:56:00.003+08:00

Yesterday we wanted to watch the stranger..thank to me..see the wrong timing..not timing..is see wrong date..the last show was at 7 plus..9 plus one only today then have..end up watching 21..is about black jack show..quite nice..hope darling u r not angry about it..sometime i think that u r hiding thing from me..i really don't noe..feel so so left out..alone..u r not there when i need u..miss you..hope that u can pass ur math with flying colour.

Hancock..

2008-07-09T16:14:00.002+08:00

Yesterday when to watch movie with him..ya for sure..he late for the movie..miss around 5 to 10 min of the show..did enjoy the movie and enjoy the time together..not use to it sitting on your new super 4 bike..alway need to hold on the thing(if i not wrong is the pump pertrol)..at miss ya..i don't noe wat my heart is thinking..

It matter on..why should i..

2008-07-07T20:29:00.006+08:00

Yvonne..y must u always get angry..i still want make contribution to u..i don't nod..how much u really love me..abit of love..just love..love me alot..some time..u really really love me alot..when everything is done..no one around..i nod nowadays u r busy with ur work..ur super 4 bike..selling ur old bike..i nod that u think we are together for 17 months plus..it must be stable..ya it is stable..just lack of excitement..that all..things like slowly turn up to be like boring..but is true that i still love u alot..because of u i can give up everything..i nod u can't do it for me the same way..it ok..i just want to noe..how much u really love me..actually it is also not that importance..hehe..most importance thing to me is as long as u love me can le..u have no time for me is ok..as long as i am in your heart..everything will go back to normal when u r stable with ur job..n sold ur old bike..just have to wait..i am very sure i will be stable..will not quarrel with u..as quarrel will solve everything..love ya always darling..sorry if i treat u will "cold"..miss u so badly..don't angry if u see this..i still love u..don't noe wat got into my mind..don't mean it..i just scared of lossing u..take care..

confuse..

2008-07-06T23:37:00.004+08:00

I don't noe how much u really do love me..today never attend the birthday party..there is a reason..a person which cannot be presented as ur gf..99.9% will quarrel..u do really mind people noe ur realtionship..last time i understand..but now u r no longer under there..wat u still mind..don't noe..darling change bike le..into super 4..he like the new old..but he also very sad selling the old one..due to he need cash as 2 bike expense high..I search yesterday finally found the post that he post to sell his bike..he seem sad..Darling..just want to tell u..how much i love u..search until 3am for your post..but how much u really love me..i noe u noe my blog address..but i don't noe if u even read how i feel..u noe i wanted to do alot of things with u..but seriously..am i someone that really boring..

Dear diary part 2..

2008-07-03T14:43:00.002+08:00

Today i am very down..i don't noe how much u really love me.."a boring gf" tis word keep poping up in my mind..never nod that i am really boring..maybe tis sun i should not even go..i noe that my heart will really be upset..after all..i am still some one very boring..i noe u ask me not take the thing very hard..i am not taking it very hard..but it is something which u say out..so some how it already affect u..that y make me very sad..in front of me u never find thing from me..but something u hide from me..i do really noe..but just don't want to quarrel with ya..i am tired to talk anymore..just want to find way to build bad this relationship..
U are not here..u will never noe..if u are here..can u pls tell me wat can make us feel less boring..i beg u pls..need not put ur name down..

hmmm..

2008-07-01T23:15:00.003+08:00

Darling, nowaday have a good chat ya..at sch yesterday..even never talk much..but somehow u spent time with me..but after all..i still someone who cannot be seen as ur gf..i don't noe y..and choose not to ask u y..ya take care..nowaday u r very moody..love ya always..Just thinking..do u ever view my blog..if yes..can u at least leave message..it ok if u don't use ur name to leave the message..

I love ya

2008-06-26T23:11:00.004+08:00

Today have the advantage learning..when i was at high element..i was scared..i was thinking about u darling..at the point of time i wish that u was in front of me n make me smile..darling suddenly i think that i need u badly..i miss u and love u so badly..BTW..THANK TO PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIEND DOT..FOR HELPING ME TODAY..U SURE IS FUNNY..HAHA

mistake again..

2008-06-25T21:22:00.002+08:00

Today was a bad day..bad in sch..i met sean..so sorry about today..make u sit there and wait for me..then run all the way to meet darling..end up..we quarrel again..it was also my fault and stupid..y shopping cut hair only $10..i must be crazy..nowaday we have been quarrel..i really hope everything for us..i am sorry for u two guy(sean and darling)..I love ya darling..

Sorry darling..

2008-06-24T22:57:00.002+08:00

Today was a boring lesson.. went to watch Never Back Down with ya..before that we have fun..there was long queue..we was late for the show..in the end i buy the food later..i actually want to eat hot dog he wanted nacho combo..then he ask me to buy the hot dog combo..i decide to change to nacho combo..can eat more..n hot dog only i eat..when i buy the nacho combo..he scold me in the movie..i was angry n give him attitude..he try to say sorry..then push the nacho to him..i think i make him angry until he throw the nacho at the other seat..after that..he went to the seat n take the nacho n eat..after that we are ok..i am sorry for my stubborn n attitude..very long never see u so angry..the last time was the almost the break up..haiz..i am sorry..pls forgive me..

yesterday..i miss ya again..

2008-06-21T23:52:00.003+08:00

yesterday was a sweet outing..we went to bishan to watch "don't mess with the zohan"..after that he was saying though that will go home..he ask me to think where to go..but it was like 9 le..end up we went to orchard..wanted to watch another movie but there was no more other time slot..want to play pool but darling was scared as like it so open n everyone might be looking..end up we seat at youth park..we talk alot..heart to heart talk..i was like so so sweet..he met his facil there..then though we go home..he went to toa payoh lorong 1 there top up petorl..then went to 7-11 there but drink and sat at playground there..talk n sit there..went home around 2am..i miss darling so much..nod that u have a hard time in your job..hope that ya can relax..less stress for ya..my heart alway belong to ya.. =)

Thank you.. =)

2008-06-19T10:23:00.007+08:00

U have been treating me good nowaday n keep ur promise that when u r free u accompany me..

Thank you!!! =)

Yesterday u came n find me..have a great time with u..short but sweet..today kind of miss u again..hope that u will have a better sale next week when u start the new job..don't want u to suffur anymore.. Darling, I will alway love u..my heart belong to u always..

PS.Be mine, always.

arrr...

2008-06-17T23:56:00.003+08:00

Today I miss the chance going out with darling..thought he will noe end early..stupid yvonne..go do wat hair sia..see u miss ur chance.. T-T..miss ya so much..Darling..thank..u been keeping ur promise that u have time..u will spent it with me..

Hope that the next outing will be soon..

PS. I miss ya and love ya =)

dear diary..

2008-06-16T23:53:00.003+08:00

today was somehow a great day i manage to watch with u 2 movies..the happening and the hulk..i have fun going out with ya..miss ya so so much..but sometime i just wish that can i don't be so busybody..i saw his phone..he haven change my name..it is still "share"..that time he tell me he will change..but issit a good thing or a bad thing..at least he was not being force..issit because of something that he does change due to some reason..but choose not to tell me..if u tell me i will understand..i don't nod y i was not that angry like last time..i choose to think of the positive way..because i nod that trust is very important in a relationship..i wanted to trust u..n if really there is 3rd party..there is nothing i can do..but i nod i need to trust u..as long as i can be with u will do..i don't wish u to appear as a bad person..actually u also did something for me..Christmas(the 'Yvonne' chain)..1 year anniversary(the cute soft toy)..valentine's time(the sweet sms)..my birthday(birthday call, cake, ear ring and night safari)..even u may not do much..but don't nod y it seem to be more treasure..tis thing already become part of my life..when i lost ur thing i wish to replcae back..but the meaning is no longer there anymore..at least i nod wat ever this few month i do..i never waste..u teach me how to save money..how to be more independent..u care for me in another way..but i really wish that i can understand u even more..sms seem to be avoid..love is blind..i don't nod how to leave u..i still love u alot..i just like u only..my heart always belong to u..wat about me..sometime i feel that i irritating..so i rather be an women..listening to him..support him n stop quarreling with him..be more understanding..miss u always..U ALREADY BECOME PART OF MY LIFE..

men supporter..

2008-06-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

I got a feeling..u got something hidding from me..but i nod that wat a women can do..is to support him..and not asking much..but i really wish that wat ever he can tell me..no matter wat..i will help n support hm..

What the use..

2008-06-12T20:21:00.007+08:00

u will never nod how much i miss u..wat the point of quarrel..i should nod that quarrel will not change anything..i don't noe how to say..if u don't have any intention to go out with me..i should not force u too..if u really have the heart..u will go out with me..haiz..when will we go out again like last time..

My dream place to be with u..i nod that u will never bring me there..even though u nod that this is my dream place..which u already noe..

when will you learn?

2008-06-12T01:44:00.008+08:00

Yvonne lim, when will you controlled your emotion and your temper, say that you will not quarrel over this and in the end quarrel again. When will you learn, when will you really learn to control yourselves.

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2008-06-11T15:56:00.002+08:00

Miss Lim Li Fang, Yvonne can u stop dreaming that today you will go out with him! This will lead to you two quarrel again. Just pretend that there will be no outing for you two!

another bad day?

2008-06-06T23:56:00.002+08:00

i don't noe think that i am very unlucky..do wat also wrong..wish people good luck turn up to be a bad one..i don't like to quarrel with him because everytime we quarrel..he sure will have bad things happen to him..

can any teach me..

2008-06-06T00:15:00.002+08:00

How to make u like me even more?
How to make yourselve the most importance person to u?
How to understand u even more?
How to be a more perfect gf to u?
How to not get jealous easily?
How to not be a unreasonable person?
How to not have mood swing?
How to get one step closer to you?
i want be a more understand person..i want to be ur best understanding gf..the first one u think..i miss ya so so much..do u understand n noe..i don't want tis relationship to fade away..i don't noe how to let go this relationship and u..do u noe how much i wanted this relationship? Hoping that one day u will get to see..not trying to imply u r not good..just want u to nod how i feel...i don't noe y..is like i was born to make u happy..is this fated?

another sad post or...??

2008-06-05T14:04:00.002+08:00

It is very sad seeing everyone putting couple photo on their display pic on friendster or their msn..but i can't..somemore our relationship still need to be hidden..he alway say does not mean that putting the photo mean anything..to me..if a guy willing to put the photo up..he is telling how happy he is with you.."like the most happiest men in the world"..so wat i write here..he will not know..i will not compare me with others..

another bad dream

2008-06-03T01:13:00.002+08:00

Was it a test or issit really the true..i wish that it was a joke..when he say out..it was really shock..at the point of time..i really wish that it was a joke..he really said it was a joke..issit the true..does he really never think of that..i am really very scared..really..

Tiring week

2008-05-28T22:58:00.002+08:00

It been long time since we quarrel again..who has change..i don't noe..it me or u..just that i know that i still really miss my birthday..wishes that everyday is my birthday..miss the night safari alot and everything u done for me..but i just get really insecure when guy go to that place(pub/clubbing..bad experience with guy who are drunk) understanding n other..problem keep coming out..just wishes to be with u as long as possible..but are we able to..just love u too much that i don't wish u even though u hurt me so much..issit because i love ya too much..just wish that i can post the photo of u n me n not hiding this relationship..do u still love me..how much you still loe me..do u feel the happiness when u are with..I REALLY LOVE/MISS U SO SO MUCH..actually i am wondering...r u reading my blog..if yes..how u feel?

Am i selfish?

2008-04-30T23:21:00.003+08:00

Wat zac say might be the true, i am very selfish if i end off this relationship because of my birthday..maybe i should not end it..just treat it as how much he like me ba..after all, it still contain sentimental..today wat i learn also help me in my decision..wat thing or person is priceless to me..some might think is hp or other stuff..but to me..u r priceless..which i think once i leave u..i will really regret it..and i cannot get the thing i want back..

21 more days to go...

2008-04-23T22:28:00.003+08:00

I have been waiting for these day to come..to end this or to continue..is that day to decide..my fate..how much u r there for me..is not that u never done for me anything..is just there sometime i noe that u r there for me..sometime u r just not there..i just all alone..i just scared that this test u will not pass and wanting me to leave u..i really don't noe how to let go..really..if can i really that i can be 'lucy' cannot remember everyday i do..want u to make me remember you..i really want to make this decision n stay with it n not think about ither thing again..have u ever read my blog before..if yes..do u noe how i feel? i no need u to put the same thing and effort..just want u to remember and spent it with me..the problem is..can u remember my birthday? if u got read my blog u will nod

I really don't noe wat to do

2008-04-20T01:49:00.002+08:00

A moment i start to get trust, it begin again. Is like do u noe how long i need it? Do u noe how pain issit..i nod u care..not i don't mean to lie to u..but think of my shoe for once..just once..ask u all one question..when u lost a special person give u something...u wanted to find badly issit because u are scared that the person will scold u or are u really treasure the thing? i rrally hurt me when u say is scared because of the scolding..it being long time since i write a happy post..i really wish my birthday no need the same contribution..just want..i reallu just want u to remember and spent it with me...how sure can i be..i really don't noe..will the day be happy or not..it up to u..

Today lesson..

2008-04-17T14:07:00.004+08:00

Today lesson is not easy at all..till now i still in cracking my brain..cannot use science..if want to use science we need to have 100% sure..haiz..is not easy to be in here..everyone is like giving up..presentation presemtation..forever no end..but daily grade not bad

sweet

2008-04-09T00:43:00.003+08:00

Everything at the beginning is sweet..in his world - money mom work study friend..where is me? is sweet in the beginning but when is the end..it alway...hmmm...if like this..how i wish i can be like lucy..only can remember 1 day the other day forget about it..

i wish that..

2008-04-05T00:08:00.002+08:00

I am very scared..as the day come nearer..the more i am scared..i really wish that he could pass this test..that the only thing i really want from him..but really got no confindence that he will even remember my birthday..but neither do i want lose this relationship..this is y i nowaday keep giving him cold shoulder..i very scared i not use to it..if really something bad happen..i just wish that i have 1 day break where no one disturb me..i am very tierd to contribute anything to anyone..so wat i write all this..he also will not see..

My birthday

2008-04-01T01:34:00.004+08:00

I am really very scared..my birthday is coming soon..i am very scared..since he never come read my blog..i will say it out..i using my birthday to test him how importance i am to him..he is someone who alway forget thing..if he can remember n celebrate with me..at least i noe that in his heart..i still have a place...if he forget..i also don't noe wat to do le..no hint will be given to him..btw i am really veery scared..but tis is the only confindence..cause during his sch holiday..i already tried my best to take the same off day with him..but mostly end up going out with his mom..n that time when we went to watch movie he using the jacket to cover his face like don't want to let people see..n nowaday go out there is bound to have something on..that lead to go home..i just have the bad uncomfortable insurce feeling that i will lose him anytime..n that y sometimed i dare not to get too close to him..cause i scared that 1 day when he leave me.. cannot take it..at least this thing can tell me i still have a place..but now i really don't have confindence that he will remember..really..but i don't wish to hint him..

wat is the better solution

2008-03-26T02:47:00.003+08:00

Too long never update my blog..hmmm..nowaday kept thinking alot..even though i alway smiling..there is problem that i kept facing..work..him..money??..i really wish that 1 day i could be no 1 person his heart..watever happy thing or not he is willing to share me..actually i was quite sad that i heard that he going out with his mom tml..another off day i cannot spent with him..i was so scared that he off then i help people tuition..but i was wrong..is like so long we never go out in the afternoon..after all is his mom..have to trust him also..or else keep thinking that he go out with other girl meh..actually i don't want to quarrel with him..not because of tired quarreling..is like..everytime quarrel the relationship alway become very unstable..like it will break anything..n i alway tend to think alot..just want everything to go smoothly..which i nod i will not take if we really break..just want him to be happy..he happy i will be also happy..but i really miss him alot..n there is 1 thing i very scared of..i very scared that he will forget about my birthday n never celebrate with me..really very scared..if he will treat me like his kitten how good will that be..putting all the love n hardwork..when will it be my turn..when will i be the no1 gf??just want his caring..that all..hmm..go to sleep le..nite everyone..

all i want..

2008-02-10T22:37:00.000+08:00

First want to say a happy birthday to u..today i am very upset..last week it was him who tell me to meet me at nite..yesterday he want to change to 1 to 8 go out..i am fine with it..suddenly less than 1 hour call me say meet me at 4.30..ask me to plan go where cause it his birthday n going out for so long..already plan to go mount faber..end up watch movie..wat is today different from other day..am i also noe how importance i am to u..i already have contribute enough..i also wish to leave to u..but i cannot let go of u..i don't noe wat to do..i noe sometime wat ever i do..i will make u angry..i don't need to ask u buy me this buy me that..i just want only 1 whole day just 1 whole day we go out together holding hand..i think this day will never come..

Happy first year!!

2008-01-31T14:01:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..nowaday com break down i cannot go to internet to update my blog..hmmm..last mon was our first year..time really flies..kind of miss him alot as we cannot get to see each other..but it was a suprise that he give me..he brought a soft toy n put under the jacket n ask me to open..did not expext him gthat will buy the soft toy...hehe..kind of left out..now it so different from the old tm every thing since so different from the day i left tm..almost everyone seem so greedy in sale..thought of my big "sis" not here everything very be fine..but i guess..i was wrong.. 10 more days to the celebrate..wanted to give him the best celebration..haha =)

timw really flies..

2008-01-05T00:54:00.000+08:00

woo..
it going to be 1 year le
it was like the longest that i have..
there is thing u need to treasure..
happy..unhappy..is all the past..
there is still long way to go..

bad christmas

2007-12-26T01:30:00.000+08:00

haiz..
wat a christmas
got alot of unhappy thing happen
don't want to say le
i go sleep le
it late..

To be frank..

2007-12-20T02:54:00.000+08:00

alot of thing..they need to spill out
people then will understand wat your thinking
humans r always like tis
i want y freedom back
is like i am so tired working..
really very tired
no time to go out play..
jan i will really want to get back my freedom
everything change so fast..
better get some sleep now..

running away from a problem is not the best solution

2007-12-06T00:57:00.000+08:00

running away from a problem is not the best solution..
thank to Joanne who tell me tis
solve 2 problem..
conflict with my love one have solve
somehow get the ans i want
nod wat to do
solve working problem
ya i still have to go woodland for few month
just do a good deed for the sick of doing it last time
somemore his sch is near there
see if we can go out..

A question

2007-12-03T01:01:00.000+08:00

A question to ask you guy out there!!
Wat is the maximum toleration u will stand your oppsite parnter?
leave ur ans n name at the tagboard.

a good starting for both of us

2007-11-10T02:31:00.000+08:00

will it be good
if two of us is not working together
both of us get stronger
do not depend on each other
will be more happy
miss each other more..
won't that be more better..
actually these thing happen..
might be a good thing for both of us..
a brand new beinging..
give each other 1 month to relax..
more freedom..
another 19 days to our meet up.. =)

problem that bring us stronger n closer together

2007-11-06T03:46:00.000+08:00

we have being quarrel till very badly
more n more people want to break us up
get more third party in
but i noe we will get through all these
n be more happy together alway
for as long as he said he love me..

Boring..

2007-10-17T19:49:00.000+08:00

Nowaday happen alot of thing but lazy to update blog..very tired..but here to say gd luck to those study in poly test or wat..as for those taking o-level..gd luck..hehe..

stress..confindence..sense of security

2007-10-13T02:36:00.000+08:00

is been quite sometime seen i update my blog..currently busy with work..in charge of the store..branch manager..store manager..excu sale rap n sale rap all stress me..haiz don't feel like writing le..nite

the word "trust"

2007-09-28T02:10:00.000+08:00

3.30le..i am still update my blog..wat the most important in a relationship..to me is the word call trust..once tis thing has lost..it hard for each other to believe wat each other said..no matter how lies he may tell me..cause i noe 1 thing is that i love him..i will trust him..i think noe that somehow someday..i am really scared at home..didn't go out..esp..this few day..got to believe a girl at home telling herself..he is at home..he is at home..wait for his call..is like 12 plus..my brain keep telling me..forget it he sleeping..but my heart wanted to wait till 2..then it got to believe that he sleeping..is not i don't believe him..he will contact more girl..study n working..his freedom time also more than me..today did happen something..just because of 1 guy wanted to join back..he don't trust me..actually i also don't nod how to make him believe me..even use bus kncok me till dead le..i am also a girl i need a guy to take care of me..when i am sick..listening ear..hug me n tell me..don't worry..no matter wat i alway by your side..i remember that the most nicer i like u..was when we first time met..he tell me..the most nicer i love u..was that he was down..he scold me..he told me that tis "actually i really love u alot.." the happier outing was..last tue..we went out really like a couple..n i remember i went to his house..we went downstair to buy ice cream..all the way he was holding my hand..this may make me look silly..but this is wat my heart is thinking..actually the necklace he still did not noe..if he were to read my blog..he will nod tis thing..y did i suddenly said about tis..today i noe 1 more secret..tis is wat i never though he will do..go to her friends friendster..saying a girl cute..yes..i am jealous..1 i was the one who add him at friendster..he never once view my page..never leave me testimonal..somemore saying the girl cute..won't i be sad..if i not busybody i will not noe tis..i was sad tis..he will spent time on people friendster..not mine..so i won't even said my blog..i just want a photo of me n him..i noe it will not post in friendster..that is only my wish...

My first post that is not using my com..

2007-09-16T02:25:00.000+08:00

haha..guess where i am..ya..i am at my class chalet..using ben yap com to update my blog..quite sleeply..haha..quite busy today..hmmm.he today sent me to my chalet..at firat we went to pump patrol..after that he call me to get off from his bike..i thought wat happen..thn he took out his phone to take photo of his bike meter..there stated 2999km(i think)..then after 1km..he called me to get off the bike..take another stated 3000km..diao..that wat my mind think but i am very happy when he sent me to chalet..

A beinging of my life..

2007-09-13T01:41:00.000+08:00

A new chapter of my life..y will i said that..after all these quarrel..ya ya..i return back the $50..not beacuse that she return me before..is that this thing should be only me n her..but this thing involved to many people..so wat her bf wanted to talk to me nicely..no matter wat the truth is..people will still help her..her bf her friend her sis her parent..they are their love one..so helping her is the truth..like wat i think we rite who wrong..most important is i am not guilty wat i have done..no one give me a chance to explain to them..n i only have 1 mouth..how to fight back with so many people..i will only said tis once n for all..yes she did message me that telling me that tell me that she return me..that was july/aug..i lent her money was on may 19..after my class chalet..she say every month she is goin to return to me..so by rite..i should be around june after her for the money..when july/aug she said i return..i ask her when she told me it was on may..i ask her when i lend her she say it was april..april i was having chalet how could i lent..nvm..ask her which day..she don't noe ask her where she say tm..at the point of time i though i really return to her..but luckily is i found my bank statement..i was on may 19..y i will lent her..i noe i when to interview with her on april 30..we met sing n jas..i was booking chalet..i lent her because i see her having a new job..when she get her first pay..sing ask me go out..i was thing..wat the hack..got pay still haven return..she had her second pay n that was the time when she quit..she told me her pay is not enough..when i brought up to her tis issue..she say before that..when..that time she does not even had a job how she return..i told sing about tis..i did..but is she helping me..NO..SHE DID NOT..nvm..suddenly they never talk it..her mom told me tis thing she will help her..ask me not to tell her..but when her sis transfer to me..on that day she ask me to return her the money..i was thinking how will she noe..yes..we quarrel again..old topic brought up..but i ask her again when she return to me..she said it was at amk..so should i believe her..someone who cannot even remember the place..i return to her sis because like too many people involved..but who is helping me..i can say no one..who will believe me..none of us have an eye witness..my friend ask me to record wat she have say asking when she return to me..then make a police report..i noe tis is a hash way..but they keep calling making me insane..if i will to make police report..i got eye witness that i pass her the money..n even evidence..but she was my 6 years friend n her mom treat me so good..JUST BECAUSE OF $50..FRIENDS SCOLD ME BITCH FUCKER..wasting me my bill..involved so many innocent..even people i don't noe..worth it ma..make a police report no matter wat i will not be the lost..i really don't want to make tis issue big..i never want to drag my parent into tis..$50 $50..is that alot..i transfer tis back..the money going to her pocket or not..is that important..i have done my part..I JUST CANNOT BELIEVE THAT U BORROW FROM ME MONEY..YET RETURN SO LONG..U STILL CAN YELL AT ME..N FIND FRIEND YELL AT ME..FINDING MORE FRIENDS TO QUARREL..I DO AMIRE U THAT U STILL HAVE THE FEELING TO SCOLD PEOPLE WHEN I AM TRYING T HELP U FORM ALL TIS..N A BIG THANK U TO U..TO NOE WAT MY FRIEND IS LIKE..i noe i never acc u all..but all my friend noe..nite time i giving to him..only my off day to my friends family..i also never give it to him..i don't mind 1 month meet 1 times..more topic to talk..just..no one understand how i going through..badly ill see doctor for twice just midnight..forget it..all these is past..quarrl nvm..once scold me bitch or so..no longer friends..even my mom call me to get away from them..now is then the new beinging of my life..

A secret..

2007-09-07T00:56:00.000+08:00

Let me tell u a story..there is tis girl..she n her guy..the guy brought her necklace..it was her birthday present..even though it was not expensive..but the girl treating like that was her precious gift..after a few months..the guy brought her a new one..ask her to take that off..he say even u want to throw away also can..but tis girl no matter wat..she don't want to throw..that day the girl wear the new necklace n went out with her guy..after a few day..she realise that the necklace was lost..she was about to go work..but no matter wat..she used her 50min to find..she did no manage to find it..she was also late for work..she told her guy..she noe that the guy will not be that happy to hear that..the guy did not really get angry..n ask her if she want to buy the new one or other..but tis is wat the girl said "no matter wat..the necklace cannot replace by other thing.." when the girl had her off day..she went around to find the same necklace..she guess that the girl will brought it from the working place..she went into the store..she search high n low..manage to get find the same necklace..she brought it..n told the guy.."I found the necklace n send to polish.." y did she say send to polish..because the necklace was brand new..she nod that the guy will be happy..but in her heart..tis is how she feel.."The one is the same design but the meaning of tis necklace is gone..i don't want him to be angry..i just want him to be happy..nothing can be replace.."tis is wat she think i her heart..she wanted to keep tis as a secret.. "Issit she a stupid girl?" tis is wat she think..

A big problem..n..

2007-09-05T20:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday had a big fight..but i came from a small problem..peopel think that was childish..but i don't think so..really was it my fault..am i not giving him face..am i not supporting him..haiz..is not important anymore..i message him today..ask him if he want me to transfer out..he must me go out talk..we went to amk hub..don't noe y i should be angry..but i see him..the way he behave..i no longer get angry..is like he forget thing very fast..we went to catch a movie..after the show..he did said sorry to me..but the time i feel the sorry is no longer important le..cause i alreay forget about it..don't wish to quarrel with him..my heart feel terrible..

A happy...?

2007-08-29T01:25:00.000+08:00

mon night went out with him..did not went back home..we do alot of chatting..that night was the best night..he told me wat the song he alway hear mean..n wat he scare about..i also tell him thing..i told him not to leave me..he say he will only leave me when i don't want him..n i told him something that i will not do..i whisper at his ear.."tell u a secret..I love u..." he no respond for some sec..i said to him "Wat..a girl tell u tis u no respond..next time don't say le" he said wait..he tell me "Tell u a story"..i really thought he going to tell me a story but he said "I love U too.." "Short n sweet ans..am i romantic?" Ya u r..n u have change.. =)

A decision that lie on me

2007-08-24T00:23:00.000+08:00

wat can i do..watever ans i give..i must be responsible with wat word i said..during sch time..anything also me..now in working life..also like tis..i actually think that way is the best way..but how many percent can i ensure that we both can work hard to hit the target..but the other way is too harsh..n i don't think that i will make that decision..me me n me..is alway me..when can i go to 1 working place where i no need to make any decision..haiz..u will never understand how i feel..>_<

A change person..

2007-08-22T02:04:00.000+08:00

last mon we went to watch license to wed..it was a nice funny show..yes..he become more caring n change..all those bad work coming out from his mouth become lesser..n that day no choice movie got sold out..must wait till 1.50am then can watch..he wanted to buy drink..but cheer got sell drinks until certain time..he could not buy..actually he will create a sence with the aunty till he can buy..but he did not..because of me..cause he want to learn to control his temper..n it was the first time he want to help me carry helmet..but i don't want..cause he is 10% drunk..n some more we haven watch movie yet..hehe..after he go out with me..he never go clubbing n become more guai..no longer a bad boy le..hehe =)

Another reason for me to love u..

2007-08-19T23:15:00.000+08:00

hmmm..he really had change alot..y did i said that..yesterday we watch secret..he nod i die die want to watch..he went to the cathay there but there sold out..so he ride his bike go orchard there to watch..he did buy the ticket..but it was thired row..he told me it because of me..or he will not even buy..i don't noe y i cry badly in the show..n he noe it..i say he change because he was serving one row of customer n end up never buy..he did not vent his angry n somemore still got the patient to sever 1 uncle for so long..if were last time him..he will get piss up n go put for drink..he really change to become more caring n patient guy..which make me think he become more attractive..hehe

How good will it be if u will here

2007-08-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

issit true that guy will alway treasure thing that they could not get..went to his testimonal..i saw him..is like he could use the effort to find his friends..but i never see it happen to me..i was the one who add him..did he even look at my pofile or my blog..that would never happen..i decided to tell him him not to watch because..if he really want to watch we will watch long ago..till now haven..haiz..sometime he treat me good..sometime...will he take a look at my blog......No, i don't think so..haiz -_-

Damm unlucky nowadays

2007-08-14T01:04:00.000+08:00

ya..long time did not update the blog..so is time to write 1 long story wat had happen..starting from the last post..hmmm..i did sent my resign last week..wat had really happen..i was facing alot of stress because of tis job..hmmm..worried anger n alway caught in the middle..i sent my resign letter because that day i was really just playing with him..n just because of 1 paper he scolded me "b..."..i was angry because the word come out from him not other people..i was like so upset..that y i cry at the sale floor..i also noe that i in front of everyone is someone who is very hardworking n all those crap stuff..so tend if i make abit of mistake..people alway think that it was his fault..hmmm..resign i gain back alot of thing..first, my freedom...is like we go out very late..that y we both are very tired..i can go out with my friend again..second..i can do alot of thing..like learn how to cook all this..but i take back the letter..because of some reason..hmmm...i never said that i lost my wallet..that day we watch alone..i was too scared until i think i drop my wallet i also don't noe ba..i n sotong went out also..then met hua..have our dinner at new york there..hmmm..got that stupid illness again go see doctor at midnight cause me nearly $100..now feeling better..we went to rush hours 3 last sat..i cannot reach eraly that y i call him to buy seat..guess wat he buy..he really change alot for me..he buy couple seat..which i really never talk about it..i ask him.."y did u buy couple seat"..he say"aren't we couple.."i was really happy to hear that..maybe people hear alot of this..but as for me..he is a lazy guy..he will have the heart to buy this..he promise me tis week we will watch secret..hehe..the following week i got 2 to 3 days off..today my off day he called me..told me he did not want to work..hehe..n say i don't stay around tampines..cause at least i can acc him..sat during work he told me alot of thing..which make me think that..he really change.. =)

Think about the good side of him ba

2007-07-27T01:38:00.000+08:00

haiz..just finish to him on phone..don't noe for wat we quarrel again..today i totally tired..that stupid manager ask me do tis do that as if i am his staff..haiz..ya ya..i was thinking something..i sometime feel that y am i the one who is the first one to reach there n buy the movie ticket first..to think awhile..ya he did fetch me home n SOMETIME bring me out from my house..but issit guy job that he should be first one to reach n buy the ticket instend of me..that y i abit angry..cause happen tis 3 days....hmmm..i was abit moody talking on the phone..some more..play with me say go out with other girls..then like give him short ans..he thought i was attitude to him then he say if i don't want talk all these cannot don't talk then he just hang up the phone..how to say..should noe that if 1 person hang up my phone..i will npt even to call back..i called back him..suprising..then slowly talk then forget about that lor..after that was happy chat lor..wat happen tis 3 days..hmmm..mon was a quite happy day la..he suddenly say want meet me at my house downstair..n ask me cook for him..i cook for instant noodle..i think i got write tis in my blog..he told me even not nice he will say nice..but he told me was very nice..tue went to take cert with zen then went tampines there..eat with full time n him..cause i got 2 days off..at nite we watch black sheep..actually i should be reaching early..but eating with my mom..is already 9.45pm..the movie black sheep was 1020pm..i take cab send my mom home..then go orchard was around 1020om..he kept calling me..when i reach he scold me n did not scold him back..after the show i told him tis.."ya..i am the one who alreay need to reach early n buy the ticket..ya..i own u everything.."he though i was playing..i feel like crying..but i stupid thing he made make us laugh..he ask me to sit his bike that time..i feel different..ymy leg cannot step anything..then we two laughing la..cause he forget to put out..when i also angry he forget to do something..wed go out with him..do facial..give him do first then went i was doing he ran into th room take my photo..crazy him..who ask him today don't want call keep sms then sms so slow..i told him if he busy later then sms..then he ask me call him..then play say outside with other girl..of course angry la..haiz..forget about it..think the happy side..

Lame show

2007-07-25T02:27:00.000+08:00

wat..2.39am le..hmmm..nowadays we went out..sat went to amk hub watch vacancy..i was a stupid show..but something funny happen..we met someone we noe..i never though he watch the same show..after the show i saw him..then we two ran like crazy at amk hub..but the next day..the guy told us that he saw us..hmmm..he told him not to crazy anything out..hehe..tue..he went my house asking me got any near by got something to eat..end up i cooked insant noodle for him..yesterday we watch black sheep..another stupid simple story..haha...but i was late for the movie..

Hand got injury

2007-07-19T00:41:00.000+08:00

wat..is a new day..so fast is thur le..hmmm..it seem to me that today is wed..y..cause i went out with him..we went to amk hub..he called me at 11plus..told me that he did not went to sch today..ask me out..but i noe tue..i told him wat really happen in the past..like those thing i did not even tell him at first cause i scared that i will hurt his feeling..after all..we still forgive each other..n noe wat each other thinking..n will change it..funny was that when we was at hub there..he keep stopping at those necklace shop..could not be buying 1 for me ba..cause he gave me 1 during my birthday..i also don't care..he might want to buy to other people..but tue..he told me the necklace he gave me become not nice liao..ask me take out..but i don't want..cause i think that is a effort n heart that he brought for me..did injury my hand badly..still got abit pain..

I am happy with wat i have now..

2007-07-13T01:08:00.000+08:00

hmmm..long time no update blog le..hmm..this is wat happen few weeks or days...last sun..i was like so angry with him..just because i play a stupid joke with other people..he like 'scold' me..then went around tell people i PMS..crazy fellow..but after a while we play at sale floor liao..cause he say sorry to me..

after work we went to see die hard..not bad show..due to 1 helmet..he wanted to go home take helmet..but he tell me he scared rain..i angry again..not because he don't want to send me home..it just that since u don't want..i won't force u..in fact i don't want him to send me back..he ask me y i so attitude..i agree that day i treated him badly..

last tue..i went out with sean..my phone keep ringing..jobie n him called me..both of them complain each other to me..it was like i think they concern with each other lor..hehe..jobie wanted to train him to be more self dependent..i agree that ever since he join Philips..he did change but his laziness..is also hard to change that one..but i was trick by him..after going out with sean..he ask me to go out..he said to me when i reach home..i call him..asking wat time he will be reaching my house..he ans me with a moody tone..he suddenly tell me tis.."jobie don't want me le..she said tml i no need come le..forever no need to come le"..when i heard that i don't noe wat to do..i called jobie...she did not ans my call..missed call 2 to 3 times..after awhile..she called me..i ask her got tis incident ma..she say no..then i noe i being treat like a idiot..i ask him when he reach my house..he say he was boring..that y he play with me..but then he say.."wa! Still got people concern for me ar.."we went to eat durian..hehe..i told him i want to eat..

after that..went to talk talk..hmmm..he noe that i like to hug him..when i hug him..all his nonsense come out..maybe too understanding him..he ask me he like to hug blah blah ma..then i say he too short..(which is my manager)..after that another name come out(which is my god dad)..before he say another one..i told him tis..."hey..don't say liao..i noe which name u going to say next.."he ask me who..i said out 3 names..then he told me among the 3..1 of them is the one..n i guess it correct..then he say.."wa! U really understand me ar" of course la..to him all those 3 people to him was my 'lover'..yaya..watever lor..i told him i don't anyhow hug guy one lor..he ask me y i like to hug him..i don't noe y i say "because i like u"..he say my ans is like sec 3...then suddenly he said.. "i like u too"..haha..i told him his ans like pri 3 like that..a simple sentence "i like u" brighten up my day..

Last wed..he went to find me..we have our dinner..at kfc..at nite he called me..cause i told him wat jobie message me..he told me he feel like resign at the end of tis month..i cried on the phone..but i think he don't noe..i was sad not because he want to quit philips n join dyson..it because i was sad that i help him so much..n tis is wat an ans he gave me..he suddenly say sorry to me..cause he noe that i put all the effort in it..n an irresponsible ans come out from his mouth..he told me tis.."i noe wat u done for me n i am appreciate it..i will still continue with Philips..but tis is wat my thinking..i don't want to hid anything from u.."i noe he feel stress..but i noe he will still hold on to philips..because after tis month or so..i am going to in charge of the store..that y i tell him to hold on..i told him i still need him in philips..even though he want to join dyaon..i will still support him..i told him something which is stupid..i also find it stupid..i told him that if 1 day he don't like me liao..or like other girls..tell me..yaya..i noe it stupid..he ans me something which i guess it.."i got like u before meh"..i tole him i sure noe u said that..since u never say that then no need to ans my question..i tell him i have to confidence with BGR after 5 months plus..he noe wat i am thinking..he noe that i am scared that he will get bored over me..he ask me don't think too much..have confidence with myself..i told him about my past half way..i noe that he don't want to hear..he just say to me tis.."the past is not important..only the future is importance to him.."

being wondering..y every time we talk on phone can talk so long..every chat around 30mins..talking about wat..can tell u is all those crap n nonsense stuff..hehe..like last fri we talk 2 hrs..talking nonsense things..haha..how to say..among all..i am really happy with him..really..even though he is difference from other guy like will but rings flowers or wat ever thing..all these i no need..he gave me love smile..that all i need..the necklace may seen not exp..but it is from his heart i will treasure it..he also treasure the jacket shaver n wallet i gave to him..i treasure the necklace he gave to me..we share the same interest..n thought..he noe wat i am thinking..i also noe wat he is thinking without telling each other..he noe how to tease me happy..n my silly action make him laugh..that y we are happy with each other..our conflict alway start from work..but after that..we treat it as nothing happen..cause we forgive each other..that y he tell me that he don't want to work with me..cause he don't want to quarrel with me..see me angry..don't noe y..he don't like my angry face n i don't like his piss up face..but we 2 wanted to work together cause we wanted to see each other..like can see each other everyday.. i ask him before y he like me..got my ans..hehe..hmmm..i love him =P

when then can i watch my transformers?

2007-07-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

haiz..actually yesterday i and him should be watching transformers..i was about to go my house downstairs to watch for him..then he called me..i looked at the phone he was still at his house..i was abit angry..but i noe that he not feeling well..haiz..i was so lucky..almost want to meet him at town..hmmm..when then i can go watch?

wat a boring day

2007-06-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

today is my off day..slept around 12 then wak up pass zenda something..then went LP zone buy jackect for him..he steal my jacket..i noe he like it alot..buy around the same for him..but don't noe how to pass it to him..he will sure say i anyhow spent money one..hmmm..gotta think of way soon

A correct decision?

2007-06-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

hmmm...today i got very angry..how to say..when he came to work totally was just fine..n i kind of miss the outing..but then when i sold many thing already he did not sold any..nvm..he went out for lunch i let him eat first..when he came back..i was starving..then i told him to stand here as there is no other promoter n some more tm courts is at the last place 'again'..i wish i could go but i was serving..after 2 mins or so..he went missing..he was at the shaver there..nvm..i help customer take stock n cash in..n top up all the stock..it take me about 5 to 10 mins..he still stabding at shaver there..how can i go eat..i serve 2 customers liao he still at there..i got angry n went there n ask him how long he want to stand there..he told mehe just came back from toilet..then i rather starve myself n continue to do sale..around 5 i cannot make it as my hand was cold..i began to take some bite..

when i went home..i was thinking..am i overboard..so i message him that if i am asking to much from him..yes he told me he don't like to be push..but thinking..when a problem start..both parties sure are at fault..my fault is that i really push him to do thing..too stress..i cannot think that wat if this store i will to in charge..no one hear wat i say..as for him..is still the 'lazy' that cause us to quarrel..i should not keep looking at his bad point..everyone in the sale floor sure have his or her bad point..but working together..i sure everything can be cover up..i did learn a lesson today..one new lesson..a chance for me to change to a more mature person..

HAPPY BITHDAY TO JOBIE TOO..DID NOT NOE THAT JUNE 19 WAS YOUR BIRTHDAY

My greatest time

2007-06-19T01:19:00.000+08:00

Today was my greatest day of my life..hmmm..he pick me up at 7pm at my house..my dad was on the way to work..i quickly ran down bringing one helmet down..trying not to let my dad see..hehe..we have our great time..compare to rest..today was the most enjoyable outing..hehe

My plan do success..manage to give him the shaver without any suspect..cause he noe i give him he will not take one..but i really wanted to give him as a gift..but i noe that he does not like anyone lie to me..but in order him to accept..i have no choice..haha

But..something that happen to me..made me noe that who i like..the other him..ask me out..if it was last time me..i would be happy like a mad woman..but i did not..i suddenly feel scared n guilty..i was the one who give up that relationship..like wat sean say..i had no feeling for him already..

After all these..i now noe who i love the most..it was u..thinking u ask me today if i was miss u..even though i never say out..but i alway miss u..wishing that u will be my side now.. =P

Test??

2007-06-15T02:01:00.000+08:00

Your Score: BROWNIE BATTER!

You scored 85% SWEET, 62% CHUNKY, and 59% UNIQUE!

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Mmmm....you are a very sweet mix indeed! You are warm, loving, and caring to all those around you, but you're not boring in the least! You have a wild streak and a creative, unique streak, too. You are a great friend, an interesting person, and you know how to have fun without ending up crouching over a toilet bowl. Nice!

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hmmm...wataday..think i grew up again..many unhappy thing..i cried because of some reason(don't want to say)..second..customer insisted wanting the thing turn up blaming me..n an exchange of item even it over 1 week..now then i realise sale line is not easy to work..

happy as in i think he started to change..in a good way..more caring..hehe..n this is y..is like the more i like him..willing to do anything for him..hehe

It seem like i getting old..

2007-06-13T01:30:00.000+08:00

Nowadays did happen alot of friendship stuff..actually don't noe how to say.if they will be more understanding..i might not even like want to avoid them..something i don't wish to let them noe..but they knew it..n ask me those question..n i am tired after work..hmmm..

It seem like i getting old..keep repeating the same story to sean..i really have STM..today went to cinelesure to watch men in white..it a funny lame show..some parts are stupid..then we went to breek to have our dinner..i was talking my story n he was talking about his story..talking about his poly..sec friends n how to maintain a relationship..i think that everyone have to give in..n take in..sean think that the way i maintain the relationship is a correct way..i really hope so..saw wat sean wrote in is blog today..whenever i want to do first i will consider about him..don't noe y compare to all the rest..i treasure him more..really..just don't noe y..but sean wrote this "Hey Vonne's bf, i hope you will treasure her like a gem, shes really a very nice girl, especially the way how she treat you, 她每次在任何事都会先考虑到你, where to find such a lady ya??? Dont ever break her heart..." when he post on his blog..it touches my heart..sometime after some separation..u will noe who your true friends who not..i noe it in my heart..he is a great friends of mine..will never be forget..but treasure her like a gem..issit too over..hehe..but i also really wish i could forever with him..but is all fate..so it have to depend on god...hehe..actually sean u no need to post it to him he will not see one..haha=P

It kind of funny that sean dream..he dream that i am a vampire n he used a gun to shot me..after he shot me..he then realised that i not..then he went to hug me..then he got woke up by the dream..haha..but i hope he could find a nice girl that treasure him..

SO HAPPY

2007-06-10T02:43:00.000+08:00

I got my ans..haha..how i get it..hmm..starting from actually he want me to acc him the whole night..but then when i with him..he want to go to his aunty..i was like angry cause in the first place u want to go there don't need call me acc him..he seen like don't noe i angry till i never talk to him..then he sit beside me said..he noe y i am angry..n he told me he does not noe how to express his love to someone even though he really like the person alot..that the ans i also wanted..hmmm..even since from feb till now..i also can see the way he treat toward me..hmmm..i should not ask more n be so petty also..will be more understanding.. =)